Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life. As I sit here in the airport waiting for my flight, it seems like any other trip. I've been on so many. But tomorrow I will be in a new state, as a single woman, re-inventing myself and forging a new path that is radically different from any I've followed thus far. This last week I have congratulated myself on every major symbolic step forward that I've noticed myself making, and reflected that I am that much closer to freedom. The freedom is of many levels and is hard to put into words.
I've learned a lot about the man I was married to over the last month. This divorce has been long overdue and it is a relief to put it behind me, although I still feel the anger and frustration when I think about all he's done that is still seemingly of little or no consequence to him, granted it's starting to become more of an annoyance and topic of complaint than source of rage. Everyone assures me that he will get his due sooner or later. I can't help but feel like I need to write a letter to his commander to give it a final kick in the butt.
But enough of that. I'm ready to start out fresh! Clean slate! Gonna go visit with some long lost friends in beautiful Sacramento, CA. Maybe do a little sight seeing down in San Fran. Gonna look into whether I have a claim for unemployment compensation because my summer job was a government position (happy surprise because it was a seasonal part time position). Gonna apply for some new jobs and look at some new apartments, and gonna get a new haircut and maybe dye it a new color. Lots of new things! Lots of new chances to get things right and do things my way for a change, instead of rooting out every possible loophole to my situation and figuring out the best possible compromises all the time.
However, I have found myself a nice comfortable leather couch in a secluded part of this completely empty airport, and as my next flight leaves in about 5 hours, I'm going to take a little nap now. See you in Sacramento!
